Monthly Archives: October 2016

DTC! LID! Now we WAIT!

After a small delay from the Chinese Embassy in D.C., all of our documents arrived at our agency on Thursday October 13th and we were DTC that day!  That means that our COMPLETED dossier was shipped over to China to begin the process of being logged in, translated, reviewed, and eventually leading to official approval to adopt our son.

Less than one week later, on October 19th, we were LID (log in date).  This means that our dossier had been put into the official system and was starting to move through the series of steps.  I have to pause here and remark: I really, really dislike administrative work.  Papers and details are exhausting to me.  Our adoptions are such a testimony, in many ways, of how God equips us and carries us through when He calls us to do something.  Two home studies, two dossiers, in two years.  Ordinarily that amount of detailed work is enough to make me feel like I am drowning.  God has been good to me though because I flew through this last one.  I am grateful for the endurance to do this thing that is outside of how I normally operate in the name of bringing our children home.

Now that we are LID, this also means that we are now officially waiting to be matched.  We waited 13 days after LID before we got the call to be matched with our first adoption.  Our agency has given us a range of 0-6 months that we could potentially wait this time, but they are expecting some files to come in the near future so we are hopeful that we might be on the shorter side of that.  I’m trying to keep it together, but this is a weird reality.  They could call at any minute!  Will today be the day?  Will we see his face today? Is the ringer of my phone on?  I haven’t looked at my phone in ten whole minutes!  Way to go, Kristin!

Our prayers have been that God would help us to navigate all of this.  That He would help us in the waiting.  That He would help us to believe that He has gone before us and He would help us translate that into our emotions.  That we would cope and wait well (seriously, put down the candy corn Russ and Kristin).  And that we would trust that His timing in our lives is purposeful.  That He is involved in the details of what is happening here with us and with Isaiah in China.

Isaiah, we can’t wait to see your face.

waiting

 

Advertisements

You never failed me yet

We had a big week adoption-wise.  On Monday we received our I800a (immigration) approval in the mail.  On Tuesday I drove to Austin to take all of our documents through the Secretary of State to be authenticated.  On Wednesday I took everything to the Chinese Consulate near downtown Houston to submit for authentication.  On Friday I picked up all of our (approved, beautifully complete) documents from the Consulate and mailed them to our agency.  They will get everything from me on Monday and one other document from the courier in Washington D.C. on Wednesday and on Wednesday our dossier should be sent to China!

As we have come to the end of the paperchase, my heart has turned to the next thing.  In just a few short days we will officially be waiting to be matched.  According to our agency, there are only a few families ahead of us waiting for boys.  While there is no guarantee when it comes to time frames, they are not estimating that we will wait too long for a referral.

Part of me is overwhelmingly excited.  I cannot wait to see the face of our son.  Who is he?  How old is he?  Does he walk yet?  Is he mostly bald like Elliott was or does he have a fuzzy head of hair?  What does his life look like now?  I desperately want to put a face to our Isaiah and move one step closer to bringing him home.

And yet mixed in with that excitement, there is fear.

In a thousand big and small ways, I see how Elliott fits into our family.  The strength of personality, the love of music, the way she owns the little sister role, how much she loves the people in her life, the laughter and joy she brings to us with her cuteness, her antics, her overall ridiculousness.  She is definitely a King.

But even more than that, I walk through every day with peace.  She is mine.  To my core, I feel that.  It feels no different that with Campbell and Bennett.  I have loved her for 11 months and cannot imagine living a moment of the rest of my life not being her mother.

As I began to think about being matched, I started to reflect on how close we came to missing her.  We said yes to another little girl.  We walked a bumpy road and experienced heartbreak along the way, but in the end we knew with confidence – we were bringing home our daughter.

I believe that God knows the boy we are supposed to bring home.  But will I?  What if we miss it this time?  What if we miss the boy we are supposed to bring home?  What if we say yes to the wrong child?  Will we know?

As I was working through all of this the past few days, I stumbled on this song.  It’s amazing how short-sighted I can be sometime.  As I’ve listened to the words over and over, God’s reminded me, “I’m still the same God that brought Elliott home”.  And He is. He’s the same God who promised us during our first adoption that “the Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in Him” (Psalm 37:23).

I may not know what this next part looks like.  I may not understand how He will speak clearly.  I may not understand how a year from now I will look at a little Chinese boy in my home and feel confident that God always knew he was going to be mine.

But I can go forward knowing even though it might all be foggy, I can walk confidently.

Because He’s never failed us yet.

“Do It Again”

Walking around these walls
I thought by now they’d fall
But You have never failed me yet

Waiting for change to come
Knowing the battle’s won
For You have never failed me yet

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You’ve never failed me yet

I know the night won’t last
Your Word will come to pass
My heart will sing Your praise again

Jesus, You’re still enough
Keep me within Your love
My heart will sing Your praise again

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed me yet

I’ve seen You move, come move the mountains
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again
You made a way, where there was no way
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again

I’ve seen You move, come move the mountains
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again
You made a way, where there was no way
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again

I’ve seen You move, come move the mountains
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again
You made a way, where there was no way
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again
I’ll see You do it again

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed me yet

And You never failed me yet
I never will forget
You never failed me yet
And I never will forget